人似秋鸿来有信,事如春梦了无痕(1 / 1)
花落碎流光
康桥如梦
1456 字
2023-05-17
那一晚他瘫卧雨中悲郁了一宿,为了竭力忘记那些往日伤痛,为此腿疾亦越发沉重了,此后绵长的秋日里,他只得缠绵玉榻,望向帘外萧瑟秋光怔怔地惆怅。这段时光里,倾羽时常携来美酒陪他共饮,亦陪他弹筝弈棋,将京中趣闻说与他听,梅落鸿面影渐渐生出喜色,倾羽心生无限安慰。
逝者如斯,不舍昼夜,辗转已至深秋时节,京师物华红衰翠减,梢头黄叶萧疏。
这一日黄昏,苍穹虹霄云霁,烟暖雨收,薄暮的残阳摇落山头,倾羽独立汴河之滨,望向缓缓北逝的潺潺秋水,心扉不胜惘然,他怅然道:“大宋已至寒秋时节,花叶皆落尽了,若是在雁门关外的辽国上京,只怕此时已经雨雪霏霏了,荏苒之间,洛涵已经离开大宋半岁有余,却不知我今生何时才能再见到她。就在今年春天,我与梅大哥还曾幻想着要带上自己的红尘知己携手浪迹江湖,游遍人间芳华,那些前尘往事仿佛就在昨日,然而惘然间,槿渝已经入宫为嫔御,她与梅大哥的一段情缘由此终结了,而我与洛涵的结局又会怎样呢?”他胸中疼痛莫名,心扉愁绪如海,痴痴望向浩渺天际的征鸿,多少回了,北雁凄清划过天宇,成群结队翩跹南飞,却不曾衔来一丝洛涵的信音。记忆仿佛鎏金的沙漏,筛去时光中芜繁的俗事,独留下一片温存与苍凉,这些日子里,身边亦发生过太多的故事,然而至今他脑中连绵回荡的依然是洛涵悲痛离去的身影,仿佛秋夜中啼血的杜鹃,时时镌刻在记忆深处。
这半年时光中,因念着父亲的遗愿,倾羽日日幽居在容熙王府中研读兵法、苦练武艺,每日黄昏,他独自闲荡无事,依旧会不由自主地来到汴水之滨等待洛涵,望着那汴河中的孤帆远影,心中存着万一之想,或许那孤舟里乘载的玉人便是洛涵,虽期望渺渺,但年深月久,等待早已成为他生命中难以逾舍的一部分。
有一天,物埠繁华的汴水之滨飘落了初冬时节的第一场轻雪,秋水湖畔飞絮接天,琼瑶拂地,浩渺汴河水生了一层浅浅的薄冰,昔日舟楫迤逦的汴河渡口亦略显萧疏,他砌了一只小火炉在渡口边蒸茶垂钓,痕秋远远瞧见他的身影,轻步朝湖滨走来,巧笑道:“瞧你这身装扮,斗笠蓑衣,竹杖芒鞋,颇像是一个隐居江上的钓鱼翁。”倾羽嬉笑道:“若有福气与你在这汴水湖边做一对渔翁渔婆那也不错,这汴河渡口舟车迤逦,旅人络绎不绝,在此卖鱼不仅闲逸且会十分富有,听说当年陶朱公归隐五湖后便是靠着在宋国海边卖鱼成为富贾的,咱们今日在这汴水河边卖鱼,指不定亦能聚敛许多财富,成为世间第二个陶朱公呢!”痕秋忍俊不禁道:“那陶朱公乃是春秋先哲,他在海边卖鱼成了富贾后一心只想着要经世济民,散尽家财救济百姓,而你在此卖鱼只怕是梦想着有一日亦可以如陶朱公那样,等待富有了好迎娶大宋最美的女子为妻吧?你的公主可是正如当年的西施一样,此刻正在辽国帝京痴痴地等着你呢!”倾羽轻笑道:“但我并没有陶朱公那样的本领,天下间也不会有女子会如西施等候范蠡那般一直等着我。”他回首道:“我却很羡慕你,你可以跟随平芜社的师兄妹们一起飘荡四方去演绎南戏,又会编写戏文,你的情感愁绪皆可寄托于戏文之中,只当是做了一场梦,而我素日除却舞剑,便是囿于室中研读兵法,生活实在枯味的很。”她深深凝望他,忽而幽幽道:“倾羽,你想过到雁门关外去找寻她么?”倾羽侧首望向漫天轻雪,惆怅道:“父亲当年因为两封谏疏之故,被官家放逐岭南,最终悲愤自戕,如今父亲逝世不过半年多,我岂能与官家的女儿耳鬓厮磨,纠缠不清。 ”他黯然道:“世事无常,白云苍狗,人心漂泊无定,纵然我栉风沐雨奔到雁门关外寻见了她,焉知她还会似从前那般待我真心呢?而况曾经为了父辈恩怨,已经令她受过深重的创伤,如今难得拥有一段宁静时光,我并不愿去搅扰她。”痕秋道:“我原以为你是那位不辞冰雪为卿热的荀粲,却没想到你竟是戏文里的张生,遇着些许苦难便想要知难而退,放弃衷情于你的知己,这世间耽恋于你的女子必会一生受尽苦楚,孤苦无依。”他愕然听着她的训责,泪痕潸潸道:“你说的很对,是我的懦弱与私心,才让她远走塞外,飘零无依。倘若一切回到从前,我断然不会舍她远去,但事已至此,我早已无可挽回。她近日书信于官家,信笺中说道她在辽国草原生活的很快乐,有耶律孤笙伴她牧马放鹰,游玩嬉戏,生活得惬意而安宁。我闻言亦万分欣慰,耶律孤笙是位博学仁善之人,他们从小青梅竹马,感情甚笃,有他时时陪伴着洛涵,她一定会很幸福。”他心绪缭绕,愁思百结,不由自主登上高台去看远方的晴云碧鹤,孤帆远影,这时倏然渡口袭过一阵梅香,他心下好奇,心道:“此刻不过仲冬时节,梅花尚未绽放,在这汴河渡口怎会有如此清冽的梅香?”他凝神观望,却见紫罗画舫中走出一人,此人丰姿伟岸,潇洒风逸,身着一袭绯色布衣,临风飘萧飞扬,气宇颇有魏晋隐者之风,他凝视着那风逸的身影缓缓而来,不由惊呼道:“梅大哥。”梅落鸿轻引一笑道:“倾羽,我瞧着你这些日子总爱待在这汴河边垂钓赏景,甚是闲逸,今日大哥刻意赶过来沾沾你的福气,也做一回这河畔的钓鱼翁,偷得浮生半日闲,抛开红尘俗务,享受一番江野情趣。”他捧过身藏的一斛美酒,一只鹿腿,并几只玉梅酒盏道:“今日寒风凛冽,冬雪飘零,河边景色萧瑟凄清,实在有失雅兴,我想着这清寒雪天总要有花有酒才快乐,故而携来一斛梅花酒,一腿鹿肉邀你畅饮。”倾羽心生欢喜,旋即取出一柄金银小锏去割那鹿肉,将鹿腿分与梅落鸿与痕秋,梅就着脆黄如霞的鹿肉唏嘘道:“古人云,落雪时节有三喜:山中访友,踏雪寻梅,煮雪烹茶。我们今日亦有三喜:水边佳会,看雪饮酒,卧雪食鹿脯,古人的三喜虽有情致但相较我们还是稍显寒酸了,虽有花有茶却无肉,饥肠辘辘地去寻梅访友,哪里会有太多美好兴致。”倾羽道:“我们今日的三喜全赖大哥你的奉赐,而今番雪中宴饮,大哥豪兴倍至,我便将此宴取名为落鸿涅槃才算得宜,俗语云:一晌愁消值千金,今日瞧着大哥的景兴,想来大哥已经全然忘怀了旧日忧愁,涅槃重生了。”梅落鸿苦笑道:“忧愁自然会有的,痛失所爱之伤我这一生也无法消岷,但人只要还活着,日子总要过下去,为了槿渝,为了生命中的知己兄弟,我也要坚强乐观起来,不可再一味地消糜沉沦了。”他端坐雪中,望着云天白鹤,胸中柔肠百结,俯身端起酒盏,造饮辄尽,倾羽与痕秋亦举杯相陪,彼此围坐雪野,饮酒笙歌,待风雪初停时,三人皆醉意微醺,倾羽惆怅望向河中客舟,心道:倘若有一日能够似这汴河中的旅人一样,带着红颜知己泛舟湖上,赏晴云碧树,看人间百态,那一定很惬意。等到有一天,洛涵离乡归来,槿渝自由了,我们五个人携手浪迹天涯,隐逸江湖那该多么快活。梅落鸿凝视着那远山湖光下的孤舟惆怅吟道:“江上几人在,天涯孤棹还,何当重相见,樽酒慰离颜。”他回首道:“倾羽,我很快要离开了,我已经答应槿渝,要离京到塞外去羁旅生活一段时间,我自幼喜爱塞外莽原的辽阔舒广,气势磅礴,很想到那片美丽的草原上去逐猎放鹰,放马牧歌,也为了不再相扰槿渝,令她彻底忘怀那些旧日伤痛。”倾羽黯然垂首,道:“大哥此行珍重,待您心绪平息后,还请快快归来。”梅落鸿清浅一笑,他见痕秋醉意朦胧,遂依依作别倾羽,道:“痕秋仿佛深醉了,你携她归家吧。”倾羽一揖拜别,携痕秋踏马而去,梅落鸿但见一匹青聰白驹载着二人缓缓归去,雪中空留两痕梅花足印,他怅然若失拾起绢上皮斛,追逐那雪中的孤鸿慢慢远去。
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